Thursday, August 16, 2007
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4:14 PM
well, as most of you know, i was damn 'emo' or wdv u all it in school. i'm sure you guys wanna know why. well, in the morning my dad went to meet mrs tan tsui fung to get my phone back. so she complained about my geog results and my dad got angry. he scolded me infront of the teacher's office and confiscated the phone. so throughout the first few periods, including geog common test, i was thinking,
am i a failure as a son? i never seem to make my dad happy with my results. all i get is complains from the teachers. thats all. have i ever once seen my dad happy with my result slip? no. what a failure i am. aren't i? that was what was going through my brains. and i had suicide thoughts twice in 4 days. is that bad?
but thanks to a couple of people - kaisiang, who encouraged me from the start. qixiang, whose jokes never fail to make me laugh. eileen, michelle, sharmane, who cheered me up. if not for all these people and all the 2go7s i might not even be here writing this. i might be gone now. this very moment.. so thanks to all of you, but i'm afraid i might need more support tomorrow after the scolding i'm gonna get tonight.. yes, i have to admit it, im crying while typing this. tonight when my dad's home, i'm gonna get a scolding from him. well, its a fact right? a failure son always gets scolded. if anything really happens to me, i just wanna say i love my mum and my dad. just that i somehow keep making them so pissed with me. really sorry mummy and daddy..
also to the teachers, who scold me but never complain much, mrs yap, mrs ang, mrs lim and mr yusri. i promise to do you proud at the end of the year..
I Am an Avenger.
